missing the things of old

i want to go back to school!!! can u pay me to study please???

(The Symphony Of) Blasé

are there no shadows where you are
i can see everything as day
problems that you try to hide away
you’re pushing me aside

could the winter calm come twice
cos your heart seems so cold tonight
thirst for substance somehow isn’t right
its killing me inside
its killing you inside
killing me inside

i don’t want to be where you are
i don’t want to be here even now
i don’t want to be by your side
if something isn’t right

this is our last goodnight
say what you will
say all that you can
words have no meaning when i’ve seen where you’ve been

this is our last goodnight
say what you will
say all that you can
this is our last goodbye this is where love ends

are you so naive to right and wrong
how could u watch innocence forgone
does what we done ever really belong
you wasted me away

God if you can hear me out alrite
pls take this feelings for her inside
my chest hurts when i breathe tonite
you’re wasting me away..
anberlin

sorry i know i’ve been anberlin overkill of late.. but can’t help it that they write such emo songs that pander to my mood rite? emo rangers, power up!!

complains and violins become my only friends

went to little india for dinner juz now.. its this chinese restaurant there -.-. okie im going to be really objective and not racist about anything okie, in case isa comes and find me. anyway, after dinner we went to mustafa to walk walk, seriously it was sooo packed till i got a headache just trying to navigate my way around.

then when it was time to go back to the car, my bro hollanded, so brought us the long way around, and we had to navigate through MORE ppl. and if it wasn’t bad enuff, when i was trying to hit the main road, my dad directed me to drive straight into what seem like a bee hive, yupps its the market at little india there. there were tonnes and tonnes of ppl there!! its like, if u can imagine the lord of the rings, the two towers, the scene at the end where they fought, yupps its almost like that.

and the thing i don’t understand is, how can they have no regard for their own lives? they just cross the road as if they own the road! dashing and running across as i inch my way forward. and the best part of it all is, why the hell do they need to tap my car when they walk pass?!!

alrites enuff of that.. isit just me or has the 8 days become smaller? im not really an avid reader of the mag, so my bro bought it, and i read it (good toilet literature). so firstly, i thought it was abit smaller, and secondly, the paper of the last few pages are like more cheap skate (not the glossy kind). so are we paying more for less now? i dunno, not a big fan anyway, just wanted to complain.

finally..

its finally a 2-0 win… whoo hoo!!

i don’t know anymore

maybe i should be content just being me.

mad about little fishes

i was having a dinner appointment at bedok just now. i ordered laksa, then that store also sells this boxes of ikan bilis.. there’s the chilli one and the non chilli one. i dunno what came over me, but i was totally drawn to it lar. its like i just need to eat the ikan bilis! so in the end i went to buy it. yeah thought my mom would enjoy it also. so there i was, insurance agent carrying his laptop in one hand, and a plastic bag with ikan bilis in the other. i don’t think it bodes well for my cred man. haha indie boy and locks thinks its super lak seh.

but i guess im the one with the last laugh now… ikan bilis with beer!! i’ll deal with the sore throat and lack of sleep tmr. for now, im going to enjoy whatever i can. kan he man signing off!

the week of wtfs?!!!

well the start of this week has already brought many bad news to my ears.. well it doesn’t affect me but a whole load of peeps are going thru difficult times.. and sometimes i am just so thankful that im not in shit like that.. well at least not yet.. which brings me to the point that life is not that bad afterall.. well it might not be that great, but i guess i’ll get by.. for now.. so to the peeps in neck high shit.. strength and honour, with loads of beers!

sports weekend

nite cycling on friday. well i still preferred last year’s route cos we were travelling alot faster, we kept having to stop this time cos of the heavy traffic and all the traffic lights. oh wells, it was still fun seeing some of the juniors and lao seniors again.

saturday was spent being concussed the whole day. met the boring club for the soccer match and then a movie after. rouge assassin.. hahha, its quite an awesome show lar.. but then still.. errrr

floorball today.. i think i sprained my back.. its hurting abit now… argh.. i think im going to be in a whole load of pain tmr..

630 till i awake

mad.. i never thought i’d wake up that early ever again.. im zonked.. im ending the week with more bad news.. argghhh

anberlin poetry

indie boy passed me the anberlin CD yesterday. am listening to it now, omg remember few months back i posted that anberlin rocks?? after finally hearing the CD, i think they’re steam tek tek larrr..

some words of wisdom from anberlin:

Tell me something more than what you try
The greatest tragedy is not your death
But a life without reason, your life has no purpose
Your life has no reason, your life has no purpose
-never take friendship personal

These roads never seemed so long
Since your paper heart stopped beating leaving me suddenly alone
Will daybreak ever come?
-paperthin hymn

does he treat you like you want?
does he ask to take your hand?
does he believe in dreams we talked about?
when with no music we danced
-stationary stationery

God if you can hear me out alright
Please take these feelings for her inside
My chest hurts when I breathe tonight
It’s wasting me away (You’re wasting me away)
You’re wasting me away
-(The Symphony Of) Blasé

but i must confess you’re so much more then i remember
can’t help but entertain these thoughts
thoughts of us together
-a day late

Do you expect me to wait here?
(All alone in my thoughts and fears)
My whole life could flash before your eyes
(Hope one day that you realize)
This isn’t the way it’s supposed to be
(This is your life girl, now without me)
May regrets for us well up inside
(As feelings for you are buried alive)
Buried alive
-the runaways

don’t care now where we live
it’s not where, or what, or who we were with
i just need you in my life
so promise me again
-time and confusion

Everybody’s tired of someone
our eyes wander for help
Prayers that need no answer now
I’m tired of who I am
You were my greatest mistake
I fell in love with your sin
Your littlest sin
-the feel good drag

Remind your parents we’re tomorrow
Lead with morals and we’ll follow
When they wake up they’ll see
that youth fades and glory days deceive
-audrey, start the revolution!

dang dang dang dang dang dang
-a heavy hearted work of staggering genius (instrumental lar dey)

Do you believe in science?
She’s perfect chemistry
She wanted my love
but I gave her the rest of me
-dance dance,christa päffgen